Psychic Surgery

Slow-moving Pluto has been conjunct slowing-retrograding Mercury this week, preparing to station direct on 1/25.  This is still making a square to Uranus in Aries and ANOTHER square to Black Moon Lilith in Libra.  This T-square with Pluto, Uranus, and Lilith has been happening for about a month and will continue for another month.   

Pluto in Capricorn is about the death and rebirth (on the deepest soul level) of social status quo, of the need for material security, of overarching systems of government, banks, and external authority.  Uranus in Aries is awakening the instinctive, animal self in all of us, inspiring us to individuate and be leaders in our lives in this rapidly changing world.  Black Moon Lilith in Libra is the wild, primal, kundalini force that lives deep in our root chakra, digging up repressed needs and desires in relationships, and challenging us to face our shadow-selves in the form of projections in our interpersonal relationships.  All 3 astral bodies have been within 2-3 degrees of being in an exact T square since the middle of December, and this will continue through the end of February.   Mercury joining Pluto this week (and lasting well through the first week of February, due to it’s slowing pace around the direct station) brings our conscious awareness and daily mental process into this soul-deep unearthing of all kinds of buried demons and complexes, inviting us into a period of performing extensive psychic surgery on ourselves.

To add to the intensity, we have Mars traveling through Scorpio slowly, as it will soon turn retrograde in April.  Instinctive, driving Mars in Scorpio is full of desire to go deep; whether in intimate/sexual relationship, business with others and sharing, or probing into the psychic depths of our own minds.   

As all this intensity slowly smolders for several more weeks, we have retrograding Jupiter and the North Node of the Moon conjunct in Virgo for the next couple months.  This says that the path of utmost evolution right now is about purification through observation, reassessing our health habbits, paying attention to detail, and getting scrupulously disciplined about our own healing.  What are the nuts and bolts of our daily routines that create the structures and systems we need to be healthy?  This is in terms of health practices, spiritual practices, diet, exercise, yoga, and cleansing and purifying.  Where does the rubber hit the pavement?  It’s time for the next year to focus on the how-to and ground it, rather than getting lost in South Node Pisces illusions, addiction, and escapism. 

When i synthesize all these aspects, I see this as an crucially important time for deep, conscious healing.  The exact Uranus-Pluto squares of 2012-2015 have finished, and yet we are still feeling the effects.  These intense energies all together, combined with the Jupiter/North Node in Virgo are asking us to clean up any and all messes internally and externally that got drudged up over the last 3 years, as we have been called into the beginnings of a new paradigm of human consciousness.  We can’t just leap into this new paradigm, we must go through this initiation, and really cleanse and purify ourselves in preparation for the next steps.  Jupiter, the planet of outward expansion and vision, moves into Libra in September.  We can see the next 8 months as a time to really get our acts together, to cleanse and purge all that does not serve, and to prepare to start bringing our renewed selves out into the new paradigm.       

The deeply probing T-square of this winter, especially alive for the next couple weeks with Mercury stationing direct conjunct Pluto, and with Mars in Scorpio, says the hard part is RIGHT NOW, as does the exact conjunction of Jupiter and the North Node.  So, roll up your sleeves, grab the scalpel, and get to work! 

T-square energies are well balanced by finding the “missing leg to the table”, as my friend Tyler likes to say.  We’ve got a wobbly, 3-legged cardinal T-square, desperately needing some Cancerian energy to balance it out.   Find 15-18 degrees of Cancer in your birth chart to locate the area of life in which it would be good for you to plunge into the deep, healing waters of your own subjective, inner reality.  Self-care, compassion for self, and gentleness are essential as this big work happens.  Look to the wisdom and the desires of the inner child for guidance when you feel lost. 

Good luck!  The new paradigm awaits!


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Sacred Sexuality: A New Birth

Pagans recognize this as Samhain time, the time when the veils between the living and dead are the thinnest, and this is reflected by the transition of the Sun and Mercury from Libra into  the deep, complex, emotional waters of Scorpio, sign of primal instincts, sexuality, emotional bottom lines and deeper motivations.  Scorpio is a sign of power and transformation, and of evolution.  For over 2 months, Mercury was in Libra, and we had all kinds of reassessing to do in the realm of interpersonal relationships as it went retrograde and then moved forward again.  Now, with Mercury in Scorpio (the sign ruled by Pluto), the planet of consicous thought and communication is in the Underworld.  Both Libra and Scorpio have to do with realationships.  However, Libra is an air sign concerned with social graces, fairness, balance, and equality, and rather superficial in comparison to Scorpio: what we desire beneath the surface.

Scorpio has to do with needs: what we need from others, and what we can’t accomplish without other peoples’ resources.  Scorpio is about survival, and the next couple of weeks bring up our deepest survival needs.  The big joke or catch phrase for Scorpio is “sex, death, and other peoples’ money.” 

The lowest octave of Scorpio is the Scorpion, crawling around in the darkest place, ready to attack, kill or be killed, and sees the world as black and white: who can I trust and who must I destroy?  Scorpio rules our deepest most basic fight or flight instincts.  When it comes to survival, we can all have fear and anxiety about not having what we need, as we live in a dominant patriarchal culture that seeks to convince us that we don’t have enough and are not in abundance (the archetype of Venus and Taurus, Scorpio’s opposite).  The key is to raise the primal power of the kill-or-be-killed vibration up through our hearts, our minds, and our spirits.

The higher octave of Scorpio is the eagle, soaring above any given situation to see the bigger picture so as to be masterful in strategizing and choosing the perfect option.  The eagle is incredibly connected to Spirit as it flies incredibly high in the sky.  This is a time to raise our Kundalini, the serpent coiled at the base of the spine (also associated with Scorpio) so that our primal instincts and power become connected to our spirituality and can infuse our life purpose and our hearts with the intensity of the power of our sexuality and our animal bodies.  When the power of our sexuality becomes consciously integrated, we become more powerful, and have more revolutionary potential (Uranus in Aries).

Speaking of sexuality, Venus and Mars made an exact conjunction this week 24 degrees of Virgo.  This is the 3rd Venus/Mars conjunction we’ve had this year.  We had it in Aries in the spring, Leo back in August, and Now it’s in late Virgo: a much different flavor.  Whereas in the fire signs, Venus and Mars were creative and impulsive, in Virgo they are kind of stressed out and anxious, as Virgo is the perfectionist. 

Venus and Mars together is a new birth.  Virgo is the sign of preparation and being of service; the initiation we must pass through in order to be ready to serve Others (Libra, the next sign).  So we are in a time now of birthing a new, healthier, refined version of ourselves.  It’s time to pick things apart, clean up and purge what we don’t need, and use the microscopic attention to detail that Virgo gives us to figure out where in our lives we need to clean up our act. 

Also, Venus and Mars have to do with sexuality.  Virgo has to do with repression.  With Mercury and the Sun plunging into Scorpio and the love planets in Virgo, this is a recipe for repressed desires coming to the surface to be looked at.  Frankly, we’ve got sex on the brain, and yet we’re feeling very picky about it!  It’s gotta be PERFECT in Virgo, and, as Virgo has to do with matriarchal consciousness: it must be in right-relationship with the rest of our lives. 

This may be a time of frustration, but it’s really a call to sacred sexuality.  When human sexuality can be stripped of thousands of years of religious repression to its purest form, it is really just another way to connect; another energy force within us, no better or worse than heart connectedness or spiritual connectedness at our crown chakra.  The base chakras and our sexuality are keys to our missing power.  With Uranus continuing its move through Aries, the impulsive animal desire nature, we are continuing to awaken our bodies and our impulsivity to join in our move towards a New Paradigm where we are each whole and balanced in ourselves, and energetically connected throughout our entire core: from the crowns of our heads to the bases of our pelvic floor.  Our sexuality and our animal impulse are sacred, and are just as much a portal to Oneness consciousness and Spirit as anything else.  Aries comes right after Pisces, after all.

We can use the powers of Scorpio to see through beneath the surface of our conditioning and peer through the thinning veils.  Dominant culture’s ideas of sexuality move us in the direction of escapism and intoxication (Chiron in PIsces), and a secret shaming of ourselves for not looking perfect, having enough money or having the hottest body or the most impressive looking life.  Our daily lives (Virgo) according to status quo are filled with lies about who we are and what we need, and with Jupiter in Virgo opposing Chiron, we get to refine and build new structures for our daily lives and our conceptions of who we are that don’t have to do with status-quo, but instead have to do with listening to our own bodies and what we truly desire to co-create the world we want to live in.  

***I’d like to share a link to the music video I released back in March.  It’s linked on my website, but it’s about reclaiming desire and a healthy body image and un-shaming yourself.

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Purify and Refine

Well, If you hadn’t noticed, we’ve got work to do. 

Jupiter, the planet of luck and expansiveness in societal reality, has already blasted about half way through Virgo, and is now in a powerful conjunction with Venus (finally out her retrograde shadow since about 2 weeks ago) and Mars.  Mars conjuncted with Jupiter exactly about a week ago, and now Venus has done the same.  Currently, they are all within about 5 degrees, clustered together in mid-Virgo, opposing Chiron, the wounded healer.  It’s also important to mention that Pluto is trining this Virgo stellium of Venus Mars and Jupiter, upping the evolutionary ante.

This is an intense time; a work-focused and a healing time.  Virgo is the archetypal healer, through very specific, grounded process, and Chiron is the wounded healer.  Over in Pisces, Chiron is working to heal our wound of separation from Source/Oneness.  As we attempt to move forward with our plans, noses to the Virgo grindstone, working tirelessly to cover every detail, we can’t forget that we must still connect spiritually to the Universe and LET GO.  It’s time for restructuring our daily lives and researching what we can do to make them work better.

Virgo can get a bit too caught up in the mundane details and WORRY.  Pisces is about taking a deep breath and letting the universe handle it; emptying out and remembering the connection to oneness.  The great balance (as all oppositions ask us to find) comes from making a daily practice (Virgo) of connecting to Spirit and Higher Self (Pisces), and choosing not to succumb to the Piscean Achilles heel of escapism and addiction.  As much as this time can feel like a lot of pressure and pain, the combination of these archetypes is really an opportunity for healing and cleansing; letting go of the old, purifying, and putting ourselves and our lives under a microscope so that everything can be cleansed and renewed.  The Virgo-Pisces axis is about purification.  Pisces purifies through self undoing and the dissolving of the ego into Oneness while Virgo purifies through physical practices of cleaning and cleansing and making sure that the new creations we birthed in Leo can be of service to others, once Jupiter enters Libra next year.

Speaking of Others, We’ve still got dynamic tension and action in the sign of Libra.  The North node is at zero degrees of Libra until mid November when it moves into Virgo, and It’s still conjunct Black Moon Lilith.  Mercury is just out of its retrograde shadow, and made its final square to Pluto, god of the underworld, last week, creating big changes in relationships and intense communication, and an examination of the status quo we’ve held in our relations with others.  It’s a good time to know where 0-5 degrees of Libra is in your birth chart, because whatever house or houses transiting Black Moon Lilth/North Node are in are areas of life where your relationships need to change.  Relationship to yourself?  Your work?  Your intimate partners?  Your community?  Your business partner? 

It’s time to transform ourselves and our lives through our work and really face each other.  We need each other and that can’t be ignored any longer.  And at this Taurus Full Moon, we are reminded to ground into ourselves and the wisdom of our bodies.  We are asked to ground ourselves into the earth and remember what we love and value, as the deep waters of Scorpio invite us to let die what no longer serves at this Autumnal cycle of death and rebirth.   images-1   

Happy Samhain to all!


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Yin and Yang // Shadow Projection

images-1If I had a dollar for everyone who asked me “what the hell is going on right now?”…

We all have parts of ourselves that we don’t like.  Sometimes we can own them, sometimes we can’t.  When we can’t, they tend to get projected onto people around us, often people closest to us.

Have you flown off the handle at someone close to you recently?  Has someone close to you blown up at you?  Have relationship dyanamics been a source of stress in a more charged way than usual?  Not only are we FINALLY done with the 6 week Venus Retrograde as of today, we also have a special event of the North Node and Black Moon Lilith in an exact conjuction in Libra this week.  Oh, and Venus and Mars are conjunct.

So what does it all mean??? 

We’ve felt the reassessment energy of the Venus Retrograde for weeks, which, as I mentioned last week, effected our relationships by forcing us to examine what we really value.  As Venus slowed down in her retrograde and prepared to move forward today, preparing to externalize her new found sense of value, she has also been sitting next to Mars for a few days.  This is the masculine and feminine coming together within our psyche.   While Venus is the psycho-spiritual function of what we value and how we socially interact and receive in relationship, how we harmonize with and relate to others, Mars is our desire and self-assertion; how we identify what we want and go after it.

In Leo, this can mean creation, fornication, relationships forming, but it can also mean dynamic tension and fighting.  Ego battles are a common Leo shadow.  Venus and Mars occupying the same 5-10 degrees of the zodiac at the same time can be incredibly exciting, and also bring up an energetic clash reflective of thousands of years of gender wars in humanity, deep in the collective unconscious.  Taoist principles such as the yin and the yang apply here.  Ideally, we embrace that symbol and meditate on its endless significance with this Venus/Mars conjunction.  When to be active and when to be passive?  Assert or receive? Which dominates in your life right now?  In this moment?  Within a certain relationship?  Within your community? The conjunction suggests it’s time to explore the anima or animus latent in the psyche, and to invite whichever has been on the back burner to come and, well, merge with the other.  It’s time for unity between the masculine and feminine in our own psyches.

I’ve centered my life in very grounded and conscious radical queer, pangender community over the last several years that honors neo-pagan and traditional Native American spirituality.  Across many tribes, Native Americans held a reverence for 2-spirit people (modern day LGBTQ people) in their villages and communities, the idea being that they held a knowledge of both genders, or possessed both a masculine and feminine spirit, and were often the spiritual leaders, healers, shamans and musicians of the community. 

As this conjunction of Venus and Mars continues to prevail in the sky, it’s a great time to consider that many gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgendered people walk between the genders, or stand in the unification and harmonization of the genders on a daily basis.  Queer or 2-spirit wisdom is powerful to access at this time.  The masculine and the feminine don’t necessarily understand each other, but need each other.  The harmony of the masculine and the feminine within ourselves is a key to unlocking greater creative potential, ESPECIALLY in creative, romantic, expressive Leo.   

As the masculine and feminine come together, we also have Black moon Lilith exactly conjuncting the North Node of the moon in harmony-seeking Libra this week.  A less explored archetype in mainstream astrology, Lilith is the wild, unencumbered feminine.  The precursor to Eve in the Garden of Eden, Lilith first appeared mythologically as a handmaiden to the goddess Inanna, and was known to be a sacred sexual priestess, teaching men to pray with their sexuality, and standing for the unification of spirit (or conscious, awake, assertive, visible, masculine energy) and matter (unconscious, unseen, physical, intuitive feminine…to riff on the Tao for a minute). 

After leaving the garden of Eden, refusing to be a subservient wife, she was demonized by Christian patriarchy, and she has been in the shadows of most cultural psyches in western society, and in many cultures around the world, as a result.  This shows up in our personal psyche as the point where we’ve rejected our wildness, sexuality, and our feminine power to be accepted by mainstream society.  Whether male or female (or in between), we experience Lilith as a wild, irrational, kundalini force in our bodies that, when fragmented from who we understand ourselves to be, can explode out of nowhere when a Lilith transit shows up…like RIGHT NOW with transiting Lilith on the transiting North Node.  Buckle up, ya’ll.

As a physical point, Black Moon Lilith is a dark spot next to the earth, a fulcrum point that keeps the moon in elliptical orbit around the earth.  She is a sister to Gaia, or Mother Earth, that asks us to listen to our bodies and our instinctive, intuitive animal nature to hear how the Earth is communicating with us.  The myth says that the angels from the Garden of Eden threatened to kill 100 of Lilith’s babies every day if she didn’t come back to be Adam’s wife.  The threat of death and destruction has kept untamable Lilith at bay and suppressed, even enslaved.  As we continue to watch the destruction of mother earth by this patriarchal, capitalistic reality of stopping at nothing to generate more profit, and weilding masculine power in a negative way, it’s time to consider how we can awaken our wildness to defend our home.  It starts in our own psyches and then our own back yards, and in Libra, our relationships.

The North Node is the path of evolutionary development.  Lilith here is a clear signal that it’s time to embrace our wildness, and to encourage that in each other.  It’s also a time of the shadow side of Libra which is PROJECTION.  It can be easy to put everything you’ve been repressing on another person right now rather than do your own psychic work on yourself.  It can be easy to step out of your power and your wildness and make someone else into the bad guy, seemingly asserting power over you.  Any and all relationship issues can be amplified with Lilith here.  It’s an effort to go into our own personal shadows and own what’s there, to watch ourselves get triggered or angry or upset and go deeper to find out why we feel the way we do.

The advantage here, though, is that there is a great amount of empowerment we can give each other right now to rewild our minds, hearts, and bodies.  When we are able to look at ourselves and become more conscious of our sexuality, our animal nature, and our irrational feelings rather than project them, an incredible amout of growth and evolution of human consciousness and culture is possible.  Libra is all about how we relate socially to others…it’s one of the signs ruled by Venus, stationing direct today!  Lilith brings crisis often times, because of how painful her rejection from the mainstream was.  In Libra, this can put relationships on the rocks in a more intense way than Venus retrograde.  We have an opportunity to follow this North Node path of evolution by looking within to harness our power, and use it to love ourselves and each other with more compassion for the beast within.

Libra is marriage, contracts, social graces, beautifying things.  Think harmoniousness, fairness, justice, and social consciousness.  Let’s choose that, rather than the South Node Aries approach of fighting and narcissism.  We really are mirrors of each other. 

Patience, mediation in conflict, self love, love for others as they reflect repressed parts of ourselves back to us, and plenty of time to feel into the wild and irrational is the recipie for success for the next few weeks.  This week is the exact conjunction of Lilith to the North Node, so we’ve been feeling it already, but now that they are in the same sign at 1 degree of Libra, it’s game on. 

Ready…Set… Evolve your relationships.  Not power over or power under, but power WITH.  That’s the new paradigm.

Surrender and Activate

What’s important to you?  What do you Value?  What do you want in your relationships?

So, let’s be real.  We’ve been a little down and out, and there’s some work to do.

Relationships have been on the rocks, reflecting the internal moving and shifting of our priorities and our deepest senses of self, and what’s of value to us in life.  This is due to Venus in Retrograde, which has been happening since July 25th.  It’s not been an easy time.  What we feel is important to us directly impacts who we choose in partnership and how we spend our time, energy, and money (Venus rules both relationship oriented Libra and pragmatic, money making Taurus).  Relationships that aren’t in alignment with our values as we peel back the layers and discover what they really are, can fall apart now.  Relationships that are built to stand the tests of time will need work now, particularly if either party has been repressing their values or not setting healthy boundaries. I’m sure we all know at least a few people who have broken up recently.

Venus has now made a couple of squares to Saturn in Scorpio, asking us to go deep within, and restructure our priorities around our deepest selves, our sexuality and dealing with our shadows, emotional conditioning and deepest memories and traumas.  In addition to demanding more integrity in our values and relationships, the squares of Saturn to Venus can be a time of depression in all the deep reflecting that’s been necessary.  A great teacher, Jeff Foster says feeling depressed is really a call from spirit for DEEP REST, and that it’s a time when the burden of upholding the lie of our lives becomes too great.  (Check out his video here:  

So we rest.  We reflect.  And in come the voices in our head telling us to be productive members of society, and that we shouldn’t let our emotions run us or cry or fall apart.  “There MUST be something WRONG with me!!!!!” 

But that’s when we tell our internalized patriarchal/capitalistic conditioning to kindly remove itself from our psychic space right? 😉  

The waves of the emotional experience crest down deep, only to rise again once we surrender to them…

Speaking of surrender, we’ve also just finished dealing with Mercury (the conscious thought planet) opposite Chiron (the wounded healer).  We’ve had healing crisis on the mind.  We’ve been feeling disconnected from Spirit and from ourselves even.  And here comes the full moon in Pisces conjunct its ruler Neptune: the planet of illusion, spirit, compassion and love, oneness consciousness and surrender.  

The full moon is a time of balancing however, and we are newly in a Sun / Jupiter conjunction in Virgo.   Wherever 3 degrees of Virgo falls in your chart is where you’re ready to get organized and grow the healer inside you, the organized work horse, and the sacred servant of your self expression to the tribe/the world around you.  Though we are being asked to surrender so much, and as rough as things have been, we’re also getting activated like crazy to get to work!  It is a great time to focus on getting healthy, and creating systems in your own life that really work for you.  Jupiter will be in Virgo for the next year, and focusing on self-purification and examination and being of service to others will generate luck and expansion for all of us, as Jupiter is the psycho-spiritual function of our societal selves expanding.

So, we can take deep breaths into this activation, knowing that Venus will go direct on September 6th, and, as with every Venus retrograde, it births a brand new cycle of the Sacred Feminine in collective and personal consciousness.  Venus rose as a morning star on August 21st, so for the next year and a half, the undertone of Venus energy in our lives will be Leo!  So, prepare to express who you really are to the world, and let all the baggage of the last year and a half fall away.  All that didn’t serve and all that wasn’t working, all the facades and roles you felt you had to play (in keeping with the last Capricorn Venus Cycle that started in January of 2014) can  be set down now.  Leo is the new birth: your unique self expression and the conscious self, the artist.  Be the artist of your own life!

The beauty of this grounded, Virgo energy is that sometimes, just locking into a better system that works for you is all it takes to get out of the muck.   So strap in and let go.  Surrender, and Activate.

September is back to school month right?  So, back to the school of life, everyone: birthed anew.

Coming soon………Venus and Mars Conjunction and Black Moon Lilith conjunct the north node.  Stay tuned!

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