The first day of 2018 beckons us into the waters of our personal feelings with the Full Moon in Cancer. Cancer is signified by the crab: the side-stepping, ocean floor-dwelling, slightly defensive creature with a hard shell, and sharp pincers, fiercely protecting a soft, squishy, nostalgic, empathic, and psychically sensitive inner world. Cancer is the only sign of the zodiac ruled by the Moon, so a Cancer Full Moon turns up the volume on personal feelings and emotions significantly—our relationship to our personal past, our family of origin, and our deepest emotional roots and experiences. Cancer is about emotional memory, from our development inside our mothers’ wombs to our reality growing up with or without nurturing parents. Cancer is the emotional security we crave, and how our experiences in childhood shape recurring relational experiences in adulthood.
At this time, the Sun is in Capricorn with Venus, Black Moon Lilith, Saturn, and Pluto. Capricorn, a trans-personal sign, asks us to stand up and be the elders of our lives and be willing to put our personal feelings aside to make an impact on the world around us that will benefit all of humanity. Capricorn is ruled by Saturn, lord of karma, and has to do with cause and effect—we reap what we sow. The work we put forth builds on itself. Making a commitment and working towards a goal begets either success or failure, and either result is a learning experience if we can see it as such. Thus, this massive and powerful Capricorn stellium asks us to find our person power and take responsibility for our sense of self worth and value. With Lilith so intimately in the mix, it’s time for shadow work here—examining where we haven’t stepped up to claim our inner authority, and where we now must.
So not only must we be objective and clear about cause and effect, we must also understand that this Full Moon’s power is deeply rooted in our feelings. We must be willing to dive deep into any and all emotional triggers that bring us into our sometimes treacherous inner waters to release what must be released so we can stand up and be the authorities and leaders we came here to be. We must be clear with ourselves, and honest about what makes us feel safe, nurtured, and loved, as emotional security is a necessity, and a precursor to being able to stand with strength, integrity, and objectivity out in the world.
Like Capricorn, Cancer also has to do with cause and effect, but on an emotional level. The nurturing and love we do or don’t receive as infants and small children teaches us the love we think we do or don’t feel we deserve, which we can sense even before we can walk or speak. Emotional experiences build on themselves from these deep roots of early life, shaping our world view and self-perception.
This Full Moon isn’t just about releasing though, as it forms a grand trine in the water signs with Jupiter AND Mars In Scorpio, and Neptune in Pisces. This portends a time of inspiration and ambition, elevating our innermost wishes, hopes, feelings, and dreams of our inner child as we feel how we really feel and follow its lead as we expand forward this new year. With Jupiter and Mars in Scorpio squaring the Moon’s North and South Nodes, action-oriented expansion in intimate relationships, personal desire, business mergers, and quests for deeper power and shadow work are of utmost importance at this time. It’s time to get REAL and down to our emotional bottom lines—what we REALLY want and need—and make it happen for the sake of our North Node Leo creativity.
Finally, Uranus, the radical, unpredictable awakener, stations direct the day after the Full Moon; so expect things to shake up and change rapidly as our inner revelations of the last several months of his retrograde begin to manifest outwardly.
In conclusion, I urge you to ask yourself: how do I at this time balance my personal needs and feelings with the need to stand up with my integrity and personal authority in a good way? How can my emotional clarity and sense of safety and balance inform and nourish my life purpose? A clear, nurturing, and self-loving relationship with our inner world actually begets the wise, objective elder in us that can face the outer world, and allow us to put our childish fears and insecurities aside to achieve something great. If we can strike this balance this full moon, that’s the sweet spot. May you nourish the wisdom and needs of the child within to beget the elder without! Happy Full Moon and Happy New Year!